never so comfortable

stars are out tonight
and you're the brightest one shining in my sky
it's like every wish i ever made came true
the day i woke up lying next to you

would you be my best friend if i offered you my heart?
('cause it's already yours)



sometimes you need a little punk rock in your life, i suppose. gotta love The Ataris. so many songs never made so much sense. i always hoped to adapt them to certain situations. only now have they just begun to find their rightful places.

i'm really happy. and i'm really busy. every day starts with enthusiasm and every night ends the same way (with thoughts of you). but i'm doing really good.


tonight in yoga we did eleven minutes of holding our arms up in the air at 60degrees repeating a mantra and with a specific mudra. needless to say - your shoulders start to die pretty early on and the thought of 11 minutes is horrifying. the more emotions you're holding on to, the more difficult it is supposed to be (or so they say). i made it through flawlessly - and there was only one thing on my mind the entire time (the same thing that occupies my last thoughts before sleep hits).

again.

every time i think to let go. every time i purposefully intend to let go. every time i TRY to let go. i'm not allowed. it's not me holding on anymore. somehow it seems that every bit of my intuition is telling me that it's just... something else. entirely.

so i suppose i'll continue on this way. i haven't ever felt so comfortable in anyone else's arms. i am open to everything. i'm always meeting new people. always faced with new opportunity. and yet none provide the same fulfillment as he does (even though they seem to have so much more potential.. so much more that would "work")



the time will come. either something will replace this or "this" will claim its place. at this point, i a really happy where i am. i am welcoming of either.


(maybe)

my next post will be about something else. i promise.