this blog has many personalities

i dono what else to say. sometimes i want to write about espresso machines and sometimes i want to write about existential crises. this time i want to write about a boy i have a crush on that i just can't get over. is that so bad?

so let's get to it. he's AMAZING. and i don't think he's even the slightest bit interested in me. go figure. GOOD JOB JESSA. you've done well! again! i don't remember the last time i had a crush.. was it December 2007? i think so. everything else just skipped that phase and either was a joke or just went straight to relationship. i feel like i'm in 7th grade again. and let's hope so, because i was quite successful with the boys when i was in 7th grade. not so much since then :P

but in all seriousness. for the first time in a very long time... i actually ....... kind of... maybe.. like? someone? without there being a lot of other stuff involved?

scary.

(can you still feel the butterflies?)

speaking of early mornings...

"midnight coffee" is definitely not the case anymore for this blog. i have to be up at 4am in order to get to work by 6. but... amazing things happen at these hours:

who would have ever thought something so beautiful would be found on a truck? i took this picture one morning on my way to my spot in Manhattan. the machine is actually all silver... but, the morning light was just right.. i dono if i'd mind if it was all gold, either :P

marshmallow treasures and 4:00am

i quit my job at the electronics store. i was just thinking... i've been here 6 months, i worked my ass off for a little while so i could get up to speed so i spent 40 hours there and ~20 hours at my other job. and i got tiiiired, so i decided to cut back a few days of being there, cut back to 20 hours. and i realized - shit, i can't live off just 20 hours a week at each job (40 hours total). i either have to find something new or do something somehow...

you know, i got a paycheck for a full 2 weeks, 80 hours, of work the other day. it was wrong, i didn't work that much.. but the check was a nice size if it was for ya know... 25 hours like i had put in. but for 80 hours of work. TWO WEEKS of work... that's ALL i would get? when i called my boss to let him know, he suggested i could work off the difference ... and after seeing the reward for a full 80 hours of work, it made me realize that no. no. that's just wrong.

so, for better or for worse, i am going to work full time at my other job serving coffee from a truck. which is a fantastic job for the time being. i love it, it's fun. but what that means is that i am going to have to start driving the truck. and that means i have to be there at 6am. so i've rearranged my living schedule. or, rather, i made one. now i am in bed by 10pm and up at 4am. so. midnight coffee is more like 4am cereal now (marshmallow treasures, an off-brand for Lucky Charms!).

what can ya do?

(i love it!)