if you find me, hide me, i don't know where i've been

are we breathing, are we breathing, are we wasting our breath?
it won't be enough to be rich

rather give the world away than wake up lonely
everywhere and every way i see you with me

Emily Haines & The Soft Skeleton (Crowd Surf Off a Cliff)



tonight was absolutely amazing. i went swimming for about half an hour (i promised myself i would take it easy my first time back. it's hard to swim two full hours after 6 years of only light swimming here or there) and then i biked home, still wet and in my bathing suit with my cap and goggles and shammy cloth hanging from my hips where they were tucked in to my suit. and i went and picked up a few groceries. and then i came home and cleaned my room up some more (i'm working really hard at trying to make this room feel like home and not just someplace i throw all of my crap) blah blah blah.

the biking after the swimming was the best part. my knees are dying so i promised myself i was taking the day off and wouldn't bike over the Williamsburg Bridge but i let myself bike very slowly.. and just kind of glided along the whole way to swim and back. it's so warm out and the wind after getting out of the pool felt so wonderful. i think that i may become addicted to this routine for the summer.


so i have all of these activities, right? swimming, biking, yoga. swimming and biking both kind of require strength training. sit ups, push ups, lifting weights, etc. yoga is its own thing, i guess. but if i want to get good at swimming or biking again, it's going to require something more than just going out to go out. biking to work, swimming a few laps - i feel like that causes you to plateau. even if you do it everyday. i guess i'm just not sure, as always, how much i really care to dedicate a lot of my time to getting better at these things?

commitment.



who has time for commitment? i get so bored so quickly... i guess that's what happens when you don't have goals.

(oh well.)