needless to say, i think i can let the friendship thing go. there's a certain point to which making amends turns into a larger chore than what it should. yes, i was a bit of an ass for a second. but i had forgiven a lot of bullshit before i had gotten to that point. perhaps it was my fault for being so forgiving to begin with. and i also really have to claim "wrong place, wrong time" for this guy. i tried to be nice and then suddenly decided that "nice" has no place in my life right now. a lot of everyone has been getting a piece of my mind. and people who aren't honest are the first on my list to get to hear about it.
i don't have patience these days for anything superficial. either tell me something interesting or get out of my way.
as far as the bike tires and weird string of events preventing me from going home and making it to bed before 1am... what in the world was that about?? maybe it's my punishment for being a dick to people i don't have patience for any more. or maybe it's just a lot of coincidental weirdness. maybe it's just me being forced to live my life and not be able to sleep 90% of what would normally be my free time.
things are changing. i know it's all up in the air right now. i should probably continue my "no sex until i'm 26" thing, since i haven't technically broken it since i've made it. only like... 2.75 years left to go. and.. ya know. sex gets me in to more trouble than i care to deal with. in general, people are pretty dumb right now. myself included.
but tonight i feel pretty grounded. and hopefully these next few months will be a breeze. i think tonight i got a big enough helping of "i don't care" to hold me over till my next hormonal outburst. prolly will be a few more months. and i'll prolly have 3 new boys by then to deal with. and if not - it's most likely for the best :)
(good things DO happen)
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