every once in awhile,
i'll think of something.
and then
think to myself
"i really wish i could remember these thoughts when i need them most"
like, i wish there was a go-to thought or memory for every situation that could help get me through it. i don't memorize Bible verses like everyone else so, often times i rely on my own past experiences to help me out.
tonight was one of those nights where i was thinking not only about how sometimes i think about useful things, but also about something that i think would probably be useful if i remembered to apply it in future situations:
i was thinking about how, so often, i over-think everything.
a little redundant, isn't it? but i was realizing - ya know, the real reason for my over-thinking is that i think that by thinking i am going to come to some sort of solution to a problem and will therefore never experience this problem ever again if i can think my way out of it in this moment.
i think that maybe, just maybe, some people don't do this as much as i do. or maybe they do. i was thinking that maybe, just maybe, if i were to just... experience the feelings and let it happen - it would save me a lot of thinking. because what have i learned so far in this lifetime? i would say i've learned that no matter how hard you think about something, although you may move on past that particular situation, you'll still end up feeling those same feelings again sooner or later. the thinking doesn't really help you avoid anything. it's just.. thinking.
so i think on that note... i'm gonna go to sleep and try to not think. i've been really tired of all of this thinking for awhile now, but i couldn't think of a good reason to stop it. but now..... now i've convinced myself i'm not helping anything by doing it, so why?
also
Happy New Moon and Winter Solstice! December 16th is a good day this year.
(of course SOME thinking is useful thinking)
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