this blog has many personalities

i dono what else to say. sometimes i want to write about espresso machines and sometimes i want to write about existential crises. this time i want to write about a boy i have a crush on that i just can't get over. is that so bad?

so let's get to it. he's AMAZING. and i don't think he's even the slightest bit interested in me. go figure. GOOD JOB JESSA. you've done well! again! i don't remember the last time i had a crush.. was it December 2007? i think so. everything else just skipped that phase and either was a joke or just went straight to relationship. i feel like i'm in 7th grade again. and let's hope so, because i was quite successful with the boys when i was in 7th grade. not so much since then :P

but in all seriousness. for the first time in a very long time... i actually ....... kind of... maybe.. like? someone? without there being a lot of other stuff involved?

scary.

(can you still feel the butterflies?)